My goal

My new goal has been to get on a good schedule. Well Monday I totaly flubbed and slept in till like 12! Oh man was I upset but I got up and started doing things including working out. Yesterday was better I got out of bed at around 10 and did some errands before work. Today I'm so proud of myself! I got up at 9:30 was out the door by 10:15 and I took care of the rest of my errands and then went to the gym at TCC (cuz its free if your a student!!!) and worked out and then went to the library to study a bit and then went to work! I want to be in shape, not necesarily loose weight thats why my picture today is of my free weights that I bought to use like a year ago. The small ones I bought after I went to the doctor with my shoulder problem and I've been using them to do the strenthening exercises for my shoulder and then the big 10lb one I use for my biceps. I've considered taking the little ones with me when I go to the gym to use when I walk on the tredmill but then I don't want them to get stolen when I do the weight machines so I think I'll just leave them at home.
Anyway, I trained the new nurse today....yeah that didn't go well. She wouldn't even try to pick up Christopher! I get that he's 50lbs but seriously! You carry him to the bathroom and back to his room after his bath! But they keep sending these nurses that don't want to lift him or get down on the floor with him! Seriously! What the crap are you doing being a pediatric nurse! Or any nurse at all for that matter!? I've decided though if she doesn't get in there tomorow and try then I'm telling Jody its not working with her and she has to put me somewhere else anyway because I'm tired of all this crap. If she would just pull me she would have a nurse that needed to go somewhere! HA! Problem solved! This poor baby though he's had diarrhea since Friday night and we just keep pumping him with Pedialyte and it seems like it just keeps running out the other end. He just doesn't do much, he just kinda lays there and watches us or a movie, which can I just say I'm so glad I have tons of the disney movies! I don't ever leave them so don't worry mom but I take them for him to have something new to watch other than just Spongebob though that seems to please him no matter what. :) Anyway, we called the doctor today and she put us on a more rigorous schedule for his pedialyte and if he isn't better in the morning mom is to take him in for some blood work. He hates needles so I hope he is looking better.

Ok well its late, I'm tired and sore so I'm going to bed!

Cold Cold Cold!

This is by far my favorite candle to burn. Mom got it for me for Christmas year before last and its not even half way gone. Its called Peach and Sweet Berries, it smells so good!

And this is a picture for yesterday that I missed even though I took it today. This is Jemari, he came over for a minute after we both got off work today to give me a hug and say hi. He's awesome!
Anyway I hope you all are staying warm and safe with all the crazy weather elements going on outside. Its been psycho here! Yesterday it was warm and windy but today its bairly above freezing and super super windy like take your breath away windy. I went to work and I just wanted to come home and be under my covers cuz its so cold and gloomy outside. I've been reading a lot since I have to read some articles on legal and ethical things for school, and I've been into the book mom let me borrow called the Bishops Wife or something to that affect and so far its really good! Thanks mom!

Anyway, I'm off to bed! Love you all!

Learning something new

Ok so I'm taking your idea Shyla and I'm going to try to do the picture a day thing for a year. I'm not the greatest at writting in my journal and this will help for the days or weeks I've missed. So here's the first one...

This is my cable box from Cox that I've disconnected because they increased the rates and whatever and so I've decided I'm not paying 70 bucks a month to have cable I switched to Dish which is 30! HA! Take that cable jerks!!

And this is a picture of the box of Grey's Anatomy 2nd season. I seem to be watching this a lot lately, I seem to be on a watch all my episodes kick..maybe its because they aren't showing any new episodes because of the writters strick which personally I think is stupid! Why can't they just give them what they want! This can't possibly be good for business but then what do I know I don't work in hollywood.

I hope you all are having a good week. Mine was sucky, the week, life and crap got to me on Wednesday and I just broke down. Poor Jay had to listen to it over the phone but eventually he got me to calm down and see that even though things are bad it won't be this way forever, that it won't be better tomorow but I can handle it because I'm strong and I can do this even if it didn't seem like it on Wednesday. Now granted I still don't feel like I can handle much more of this but I have a lot of great role models who did it and that I can look up to that have done it all, and I have a great support system that encourage me when I'm feeling down and feeling like I can't do it anymore. Prayer works a lot too. I know it sounds cliche and people say it all the time but its true what they say, you pray more when your in trouble. I think thats how He wants it. He wants us to come to him when we're in trouble because then He can teach us more and guide us better because we're open to it. Granted we need to pray all the time even when we're not in trouble or feeling down but I think it means more when we not only put effort into it but actually say that we need Him. I don't know if any of this makes sense but it does to me.

I love you all!

Shyla tagged me!!!

A: The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.
B: Each player answers the questions about themselves.
C: At the end of the post, the player then tags 3 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

10 years ago: I was 14 living in Barltesville I think and in 8th grade

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Studying for my 1st exam
2. Going to meals on wheels
3. Retaking my dosage calculations test
4. Going to Owasso with Jemari
5. Sleeping!!!

5.Snacks I enjoy:
1. Oreos
2. Doritoes
3. French Fries
4. Cereal
5. German Chocolate Pie

What I would do if I were suddenly made a billionaire:
Buy a new car, pay for the rest of my schooling, give some back to mom and dad, and save the rest.

3 of my bad habits:
1. not dusting
2. worrying about things I can't change
3. not taking care of myself

5 places I have lived:
1. Claygate, England
2. Sugarland TX
3. Bartlesville, OK
4. Broomfield, CO
5. Tulsa, OK

5 jobs that I have had:
1. Arby's
2. Babysitting
3. CNA
4. LPN
5. ......I haven't had 5 jobs

5 Things people don't know about me:
1. I want to work at an elemenary school as a nurse
2. I want to learn how to arrange flowers like my mom
3. I want to have a house to decorate for Christmas like my mom
4. I want to adopt a baby
5. I want to learn how to do repairs in a house

Ok I tag.....Caleb, Holly and Mom. Those are the only other people I know.

Its going to be ok right?

Holy Cow! I just have to keep telling myself that I love my career choice and that it will be over soon.

So the next episode in the never ending drama with work is as follows. They pulled me from my usual house to cover a few night shifts at another house because one of the nurses licenses expired. Well that left mom with only 2 nights a week with a nurse and she wants weekends now because she has class those days. Well I was there Thursday and she came back after being gone for like half my shift and said that she changed her classes to during the week. I was so excited to call my scheduler Jodi! I was like did you get a call from mom!? She was like yeah, I was like how funny is this! She acutally managed to get the classes she wanted during the week! Now my question is why didn't she do this to start with? So I asked mom what days she was going to class and she said Monday, Wednesday and Thursday and so I responded saying ok so we need to have you covered on Monday now and she goes NO I want my 5 days back! I was like but we need to make sure that your school nights are covered. What the crap! Like seriously this lady just continues to blow my mind! She thinks she's important and her son is like the least critical patient I think the office has! But its she doesn't understand that and until she does she is just going to continue to be upset and think the office is just being mean to her.

On a brighter note school is going very well despite the crazy pace and whirlwinds of information. We had our dosage calc test this morning and while I studied for it there was just no hope of passing it on the first time so I did the best I could and then when I got the test back today I found I'd done most of them right and the teacher went thru the whole test and worked all the problems so that the ones that I didn't get I saw how to do them. So now I can study a bit more and then take it again. I'm excited about all this! I have my first test next Saturday, and I need to buy some new shoes cuz mine while thier mostly white thier looking dingy and gross and thats not acceptable for school clinicals. I'll have to take a picture of me in my new uniform when I get it. Its navy blue instead of white and I can't tell you how happy I am about that! I hated the white ones! You always had to make sure your underwear didn't show, you couldn't wear anything of color or with print underneath the scrubs it was a pain! And its intimidating to the patients anyway. So now I can look normal! :)

I'm looking forward to spring break though...I'm not sure if I'm going to do anything. I'd like to go to Colorado but I'd also like to go home to Houston when Shyla and Russel come down. So much I want to do and only so much vacation time to take off to do it. I miss you all so much and love you all so much.
Mom and Dad thank you for praying for me. I need every bit of them to not loose my head with all of this thats going on. How you guys made it thru college I still don't know cuz it just seems so hard right now. But I guess its just a means to an end right?

I love you all!
Britni

Its a new year!

Happy New Year to you all!!!

So far its been a busy start to the new year but I welcome it! I've now started school. Work has been interesting. And social life has been kinda slow but good.

So I was totaly not happy with having to come back to Oklahoma after Christmas. I never get to spend enough time at home and lately it would seem that I miss being there more than normal. I'm not sure why but I guess thats part of growing up and being out on your own so much, you miss not being at home and you miss all the things that go on there. It was tons of fun to be there though! Cooper's surgery was...lol..memorable! And for all those that weren't there I have a video on my phone that ya'll can see when I see you. (which is a subtle hint that ya'll need to make arraingments to see it...and come see me!) Spending time with Beast (she's so tall!) and mom and dad was good too! Its nice when you get to be home and you don't have to worry about the crap that is going on every where else.

Anyway, I started school this past Saturday. HOLY CRAP!! Man I have so much work ahead of me but I'm so excited too! We have class all day Saturdays and then some days it will be lecture in the morning and clinicals in the afternoon and evening. But here's the break down of my program. Spring semester: 1st 8 weeks is Bridge, 2nd 8 weeks is Psych; Fall Semester: 1st 8 weeks is OB, 2nd 8 weeks is Peds; Spring semester 1st 8 weeks is Advanced Med Surg, 2nd 8 weeks is transition into the RN clinical role (or something to that affect). But in the Spring I'll be a level for, right now I'm at level 3. And the other crazy part is in the Spring its like clinicals all the time! Like these are the 12 hour ones! Its going to be so crazy! But I'm excited about it. Well ok so I'm like scared out of my mind after how they put everything on Saturday but it was the first day and they were explaining everything so it was a lot of stuff. I have to have the first 5 chapters read for class on Saturday, which isn't that bad cuz the book is like so skinny.
Its all part of a new chapter in my life so I say bring it on!

Work....well I had to let my case manager know that I'm concerned about my little patient. I came back and he had lost a tooth! Now normaly this wouldn't seem a problem but the kids 4! We brush his teeth everyday..or well I do at night when I'm there, and we are giving him the feedings the doctor said to...oh wait no I am but mom is either refusing or forgetting the over night feedings and then wondering why he gets upset because he's hungry! I told my case manager and she's going to have his doctor do some blood work and then call a meeting with the family and people involved in his case. I mean seriously! How do you let things get this bad at home that you neglect to watch or take care of your son!? UGH!!! Anyway, she's wanting nursing on the weekends now to and is mad because the office isn't able to staff it. Well guess what the office doesn't have the ability to staff everyone! That plus nurses don't want to work 10 hours on Saturday and Sunday! Every school I've ever seen offers all their classes on weekdays so why can't she do it then? She doesn't work she doesn't do anything except sleep and eat! Anyway, she's upset to because the office is staffing me out on Saturday after I get out of school and she's like I should get you on Saturdays I need the nursing! Man whatever!
I'm done talking about it.

The rest of life is good. Just the usual with studying, working, hanging out with friends and chillin on my own. Apple and I are thinking of taking a dance class together to get some exercise and have some fun together. Jemari is starting NSU and working two jobs...we're both a little lost as to when we'll see eachother but we'll make it work. :) I know you guys don't want me to be with him and want me to move somewhere else to find a man. But what you guys don't see is how happy I am with him and how much we love eachother for who we are. I know he isn't a member and I know that is a dissapointment to you all but it isn't to me. And as much as thats going to hurt and shock you all...I'm sorry. I don't know if he and I have a future together or not, but I'm willing to see if we do.
I know you all now want to talk to me, yell at me, whatever but I don't want to hear about it. I know the consequences, I know that you all are mad that I'm doing this, I know that you all want whats best for me but, whats best for me right now is to be happy and I am. So if thats not what you guys want for me then I don't really want to hear it.

I love you all! I hope you all had an awesome New Year and are making new goals and plans to fulfil this year!